Can you believe I’ve never been to Cape Reinga? Neither can I! Well, that’s all about to change….
For 3 and a half years now, I have been ‘homeless’. And I am deeply, profoundly happy. I’m also deeply, profoundly in love with New Zealand, and so I feel deeply, profoundly GRATEFUL to be able to call this whole land my home. My journey has been taking me back and forth, between the North and South Islands, and I have found delights aplenty about both.
In August and September, I’m making my way up from Kapiti, via Auckland, to the Far North on a bit of pilgrimage to one of our most sacred places. Along the way and back again, I’m a mobile healer offering BodyTalk sessions, and I will bring you the next Guided New Moon session from somewhere delicious…and I don’t know exactly where that will be!
Ok, so I’m not really homeless – I’m a housesitter. It’s a way of life that’s not for everyone…if you need to know where you (and your kids or furry friends) will be living next month, I don’t recommend it! But as any traveler could tell you, if you want to understand the true meaning of ‘home is where your heart is’, then get on the road…
It is a soul-full adventure as well as a physical one. The map of my journey only shows ‘you are here’ and the rest is…deliciously blank! Now often that’s been quite scary, a real test of deeper security. It always seems to be the 11th hour, and 59th minute that things work out. But they do.
I know many people are in the midst of what feels like complete uncertainty right now, as this ‘new energy’ just seems to work this way. You’ve got to be flexible. You need trust. It’s somehow feeling different every day. It doesn’t want to be pinned down. It’s ‘everywhere a flux, flux’. It’s awesome! It can actually be really, really fun!
It also relies on you having a direct line to your inner compass, higher self, intuition – whatever you want to call it, I’ve come to see clearly that it has to be YOU. That is, if you are someone who has taken any sort of responsibility for/claimed the power of creating your own life, it’s like ‘they’ve called your bluff’. I don’t know about you, but me and my Invisible Friends have all spent quite a lot of time chuckling at me about that over the last couple of years…and all of their support and guidance has been about tuning more into me, and claiming my own highest joyful life. If I find myself asking what to do, the answer is usually “What do you want to do?!”. The wonderful paradox of that is that I feel more supported, guided and connected than ever. ‘A closer walk with thee’ and ‘a closer walk with me’ have become the same path.
Through this time of ‘surrendering to the magic of uncertainty’, I’ve seen that even moments of indecision contribute to perfect timing. Truly! If I haven’t known the way forward, it’s usually been because there was someone I needed to meet, or more information just about to be delivered. In this way, ALL my feelings have been validated, and I’ve learnt to trust myself and that lil’ inner compass more and more.
I have to acknowledge that it wouldn’t be anywhere near the same experience without also having a larger sense of family. The times I spend staying with lovely friends in the little gaps in between nurture the connections we all need with others. It really is much better than just catching up for a coffee though; sharing food, morning dreams and larger visions with more juicy time and space than we often can have with our friends. So I send huge appreciation to the family who welcome me into their warm, grounded, homely spaces that they have created, with postal addresses and gardens and pets and such. There wouldn’t be a shire to go home to without you.